Well where to start??? So much has happened in the past month. It started out by be notified with short notice that my job was holding a manditory staff meeting and hour and half after I went home, and I had a church even that I was the only one from our yw presidency that was planning to go. I was so unsure what to do, but knowing that I couldn't risk loosing my job, I went to the meeting at work and was told that on the following Tuesday that the board of directors would vote to close our doors because of low funding. I actually unlike others was quite calm. I guess I kind of saw it coming. I dont know why but it didnt really shock me. So I went home and told my hubby and then just decided that I would pray about it and not let it get my weekend down. So Tuesday came and work was very long and trying for all. I know I thought it was never going to end. That evening I decided not to go to the meeting because I had  a lot of homework that I had to completer. So i stayed home and waited for a phone call from a co-worker. I got the news that we were set to be open for at least 2 more weeks, when the board would meet again. I learned the next day that they are 100,000 in debt and had to come up with 38,000 in just 2 weeks. I honestly do not think it will happen, so that meeting i set to be held on Monday May 7th...just a few days away. I will be attending that meeting for sure. So this week, I decided that I want to become a 31 gifts consultant to raise some extra money so that I can help out if I do loose my job or just to be a stay at home mom some day. I am really excited yet very nervous. My husband graduates from Ivy Tech in 7 days..I am so excited for him and cant wait to celebrate his accompishments, with our friends and family. I am working really hard to get things done around the house so that I can be prepared for the guest and to show off our house. I am excited about that this will be our first party that we have been able to host since we have been together. In two weeks from Friday, we will have been dating for 4 years....Yes I know hard to believe. In that 4 years, we have gotten married, I joined the church, we went to the temple and got sealed for all of time and eternity, we moved to a much larger house, I got a job promotion, sean will graduate, and we got pregnant even though it didnt turn out as we had hoped it would, we still got pregnant and that is wonderful...we now know that we can get pregnant and we are not gonna let anything stop us from trying. So you have it what a crazy last month, oh and I have 2 finals to complete before I am done for summer vacation. I am getting really excited for this summer and all that it is going to have to offer us and all of the new friendships that I am sure that I will make throughout the year with my new business endevour. Well it is time to get ready for a night of mani/pedi's with my amazing yw!!!!!!!!!

Well what a fantastic Sabbath Day it has been. Church was fantastic, the talks were right there hitting home and the spirit was ever more strong. The lesson that I taught on short notice in YW was also very uplifting to me. I was able to go to the hospital and visit with my dear friend Amber, and hold her very precious baby boy for about 2 hours. It was so fantastic and so much uplifting to me. Just showed me how much more I wanted a baby of my own and how much harder I need to work to keep myself in shape in order to make it happen. I am contimplating changing doctors and hospitals, but I am just not sure what I want to do. I am so confused about the right thing to do. I am just going to leave it up to Heavenly Father and pray about it as needed. I know that I will find my answer. The week is hopeful that it will be a good one, looks like we may be able to go outside this week which always helps out the kiddos and their attitudes. They seem to much more into learning if we do that.

Well my week is starting out really good. My kiddo's have over all been pretty good. I have enjoyed teaching them about shapes and searing for them. I am excited though that I have 2 and half days this week and 2 days next week and it will be my vacation. I am really excited. I just found out that I will be getting first aid and CPR training next week on Monday, that is exciting to me. Sean leaves on Thursday for 4 days and that is kind of scary to me, because I do not like to be a lone and it will be much more different in this house, but I am gonna try and use that time to get some organization done. I know that I and my house need it both really bad. I am tiered of clutter and too much junk and not knowing where to put it. I am looking forward to getting the things done but will miss him. Tia and I are giong to hang out on Friday night so that should be lots of fun. I cant wait, we have needed to do this for a really long time and we finally get to do it so we should have fun. The weather though has turned out to be really cold and i am not liking it. I am ready for shorts and flip flops again but no fear I do have my flip flops on!

What a beautiful day that it is in our surroundings. I am so thankful for the mild winter that we encountered and hope that our spring and summer are as mild as the winter was. Yes that means that the first day of Spring has sprung. Today my frog class had school pictures and it was really fun especially for me because it was my first time. I am loving all of these things that I get to do for and with these amazing kids. I am thankful that Heavenly Father put this job into my path. Even though last week I got a call from another job, and I was interested so I called about it and well I never got a return call but oh well must not of been in his plan. I think I am meant to stay at Gateway at least until we can afford for me to stay home and be a mommy. I did find out today that the bleeding that is going on is still normal from the miscarriage and the placenta that was sent out to be tested had no signs of trouble for future children. I felt so blessed and relieved when I heard that news today. I knew that Heavenly Father really knew what was best for us. I am thankful for the priesthood in my home and the blessings that I am able to gain from it and from being faithful to Heavenly Father. I have found that my new job keeps me busy and keeps me looking good. I have really took a change in my appearance and my weight. I have been dropping the pounds and feel so good about myself. I love to get up in the mornings and take care of myself and put on pretty clothes and shoes as well as do my hair and make up and it all looks right together. I dont feel grungy anymore when I go to work. I am thankful for all of the blessings that i have in my life and my surroundings. I am very thankful today for the house that I was blessed to have the oppertunity to move into. It has been fantastic and I wouldnt trade it for the world. We have windows and they are fantastic the house is clean and secure and is really amazing. We are looking forward to having a big cook out at our house really soon! I am itching to have it all together.

Life seems so fantastic right now even though so much ahs happened through my life in the past few months but it is all for a reason and we will get through it and know matter what I have heavenly father and my family on my side to be there and support me. I love every minute of thinking about having a baby and looking at baby clothes.

School is getting closer to coming to a close for the semester and I am going to take the next semester off I do believe. I am ok with just working and laying by the pool.

Wow what a wonderful day that it has been. I have been so blessed today in so many ways. It started out a bit rocky with my shorts blowing out as soon as I got into the car. But my kids loving and joyful smiles made all the difference. We had a great sensory day and it was fantastic fun. We even ventured outside in the afternoon. The weather is perfect and beautiful. I am in love with all of the windows that are in my house, and being able to open them. I had so much fun with my amazing kiddo's. I came home to a pretty clean house, and dinner about to be prepared for the missionaries to eat with us. We had Airyonna over and she was so great. Hearing her sing and dance in the kitchen while I was doing dishes and Sean cooking made me feel better about the baby thing because I know that it will happen and it will be so amazing when it does. I know that some day we will be working together and have our children joining in. I am really excited to see the changes that Heavenly Father has in store for us. I am actually starting to feel like I love myself for me. I feel good about my weight and my over all composition. I love my hair and getting it done makes me feel so good about myself.

The gospel has changed my life in so many ways and I am so thankful for it. I am able to learn more about myself and the plan that Heavenly Father has in store for me. No matter what others think or feel about my faith I truly believe it is true and that it is right. I feel at home when I am at church. I can def feel the spirit all the time. i am keeping my life and surroundings clear so that I never loose the voice of the spirit. I know it is a direct revelation from my father in Heaven. I am thankful for being able to get to know some new members and to be a friend to them.

My eternal bond is ever strong and I love it. I am so thankful for the knowledge I have of it.

I am in love with bargin shopping so much I can hardly make myself shop at places and pay regular price. I love shopping at the Goodwill and being able to get the things that I need. I feel like it is good for me and my family and allows us to be more frugal, and thrifty.

Life is amazing and I cant wait to explore the rest of it and find out all that is in store for me and my family. I am ready to have a little family of my own. It will make things so fantastic.

We have decided that is our turn to be there for someone else, and we are willing to do that in any way possible. I am so happy to be a part of an awesome church and have awesome family and friends. I am so excited to be able to meet new members into our branch and to be able to have friends who believe int he same things as us. We are truly blessed to have such a strong bond with Heavenly Father. Our chance to have a child of God will happen in time.

Well, I have decided to give this a go. This year has been all sorts of emotions. It started out so fantastic with us being able to move to a fantastic house. We are loving it still. We were both sick off and on through out January, and I fell down the stairs in the garage and sprained my ankle. At the end of January we found out one Sunday morning that we were expecting our first child, after I had been having afternoon sickness and queezy feelings around certain smells. To our surprise we were so excited and so eager for it. I had blood work done the next afternoon and then on Tuesday we found out we had to have an emergency ultrasound due to low progesterone levels, so Sean met me and we went to the hospital very eager to see our baby, we waited a long time and finally got back, the ultrasound tech was doing what she needed to and I looked up and saw that her face didnt look good, so she then told us that the sac was there but the baby was not, I completly lost it and we went on, we went through the miscarriage process for over a month and finally expelled the baby while we were shopping one day ending our spree in the ER. The staff was great and I felt like I was dieing. We have tried to deal with everything in the best way that we know how. We know that Heavenly Father had a plan for us and that he loves us and will get us through the hard times. We have amazing friends and family who have been there for us and helped us through this. We just want to give back to another couple who may be going through the same things. We are on the right track to working on our second try at starting our family. Other than that we are both doing well. I love my new job, and Sean was accepted to IUPUI and has decided to change his major there and do Finance. He will be going through graduation at IVY Tech on May 10th. I am so proud of him. We love the house and would love to own it, but we will probably have to wait. That is the year so far.